No matter how good it was, you just can’t ever go backwards I just found a video of an interview done of me in 1996. I was 38 years old, and had lost about 100-150 pounds. I had met Richard Simmons on the front door of a cookie factory, imagine that! I was 444 pounds and was on my journey to lose 200 pound. Which I kept off for what felt like one minute.
Aside from the weight gain, I had a lot of losses that came suddenly, the most important people in my life died all in a short period. It felt overwhelming so I just shut down, I lost any hope for a future. Since then I have spent the last decade trying to get back to that place. Believing if I lost the weight again, I could basically re-live that time in my life. But we can never go back.
Don’t we all do that? Remember a happy time in your life and try to re-live it? it never works that way and dreaming about how things use to be is only a memory. Memories don’t usually work very well as goals. To gain back any hope we must bravely move forward instead of backward.
When I finally decided that I could not do the same things to get back to a healthy happy life, that is when I started making progress again. I started fresh, No longer living in the past.
The future was scary, it always is a bit, because the unknown can be scary when you walk alone.
But I have made a decision to move forward, and it’s working! My method of losing weight is different, most of the friends I lost weight with, have turned into a whole new group of support, of a different kind. Change is hard, but change is necessary to move out of the misery you are in. And change has to be forward, not backward.
The video below is from 1995-1996 when I had lost roughly 150 pounds. My friend Julie did this interview when she worked as a TV reporter. I had done one informational with Richard at this point, and did another one the following year in my home town after losing 200 pounds. The quality is poor, but I think you might get a kick out of viewing it. Just click the link below.