Hope

 

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Today is one of those days when I think of all the things I need to do makes me feel overwhelmed. I sometimes wonder if I will ever get to where I want to go. And, after an A+ week with my food plan, I did not lose a pound. At this point I know the loss will come, it’s all part of the process. Now that I am feeling so much better and my mobility has greatly increased, I am anxious to get on with life. The road still seems long, but what I have that was missing 16 months ago is hope.

Hope is the first thing most of us feel in our hearts when we make great accomplishments. The word gets used so much, that it can get watered down. But Hope is what helps us get that train out of the station. I remember when I felt no hope, and most of my friends around me had given up and saw no hope in me. But I had a few loyal friends who always believed in me. I remember asking a friend many times, “Do you believe I can lost this weight?” My hope was gone, so I needed to borrow some. Their belief in me was the thing that got me started. Sometimes borrowing hope, can be the tiny spark that gets us going.

Do you believe you can lose weight and get healthy? Or are you looking for hope, and doubting your capabilities? Does the amount of weight you have to lose seem impossible? Let me tell you this, you can not possibly lose all the weight you want to lose, it is impossible! But, (and it’s a big butt) you can lose 1 pound! Just one pound! I have set out to lose 1 pound 300 times. That is do-able, and that may be the hope you can hold in your heart today. I have lost just one pound, 147 times.

I am getting the administrative stuff ready for Sean, Gerri’s and my next 8 week weight loss session with our group, “A Better Weigh” . This is exciting stuff! Our last group have had tremendous success! We only have ONE opening left for the Tuesday night group. So if you are hesitating, you best not delay! Screen Shot 2016-07-14 at 8.34.41 PMHere is a little information on signing up. The three of us who lead this have collectively lost over 550 pounds! That is so amazing! The best teachers and coaches we can have are those who have walked the path ahead of us. There is information in the EVENT  section on my menu. Or just click the word EVENT and it will take you to the link. 

I am also taking one on one Coaching clients. I have recently become a Certified Professional Coach, and although I specialize in weight loss, I can coach you through any task or obstacle in your life that you would like to overcome. Coaching is not Therapy. Coaching is not about analyzing but about action! If you are feeling like you are spinning your wheels searching for “why” coaching is for you. I can not tell you how much my life changed once I was coached. It gave me direction and helped me find the answers inside of myself. coaching flyerHere is some information on my coaching business. Please feel free to call  or message me. I am offering anyone who is considering this a FREE first 30 minute session, with no obligation. Just email me at totalkathy@aol.com or text or call me at 712-259-1736. Who knows, it may turn your life the direction you always wanted to go. Here is a link to my COACHING page.

Thank you for reading. Your messages and faithfulness to my blog have been the fuel I use to keep going. I am grateful for the army of support around me. Blessings to you all!

it’s All Good!

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The new 8 week group I co-facilitate with Sean Anderson,  The Daily Diary of a Winning Loser, and Life Coach Gerri Helms, Life Coach Gerri Helms, are about to start in a few weeks on August 8th and 9th. I am thrilled to have the privilege to work with these truly outstanding people. It is nothing short of a miracle that I happened across these two.

The personal success stories they both have, love are quite amazing! Plus, it is an honor I get to work with them everyday on our coaching business. The three of us have lost over 550 pounds collectively! (550 pounds is about the same as the weight of a Pig ready for market.) Now that is some success story! The hearts of these two, is to help others achieve good health and avoid the heartache and time obesity steals from millions of people everyday. The friendships I have been blessed with, I will carry throughout my life.

The truth is, when we truly give all we have to better ourself and the world around us, God seems to make a way to give us opportunities we could never dream of. I never dreamed 16 months ago, when I was 537 pounds, with a broken heart and getting welfare check-ins by the local Police Officers, I would be a Certified Coach, and have a close relationship with two people who have gone before me. Sean’s story is like mine in the fact that he lost 250 plus pounds, and gained much of it back, like me. And now he has lost it all plus more and has maintained that lose several years. Coach Gerri, has lost 100 pounds and maintained that loss, over 20 years.

All of this started the day I quit being a victim, and trusted God would guide me down a path I wondered if  I could ever walk. 16 months ago, I was morbidly obese, living in a house that was a destructive mess from a failed remodel job I gave over my control for.  Friends that had given up on me and saw me as pathetic and hopeless. I wondered  how I was ever going to take care of myself let alone the mess I was living in. When you are that obese, and are house bound in a chaotic mess, life feels hopeless.  I decided looking back, or blaming anyone for my situation was getting me nowhere. The only person who was ever going to help me get back my health, and my crumbled home, was me. I could lose weight, and get a job, fix my home and life on my own, so I did.

I have sustained a lot of losses, in my health, my finances, and failed relationships, at my own demise. I am no longer a victim. I own my transgressions, and poor decisions. The day I took charge and never looked back was the day the healing begin.

If you can relate and are interested in checking out “A Better Weigh” feel free to write or call me. There is hope! We are so much more capable than we believe we are. It is never too late.

I am working on being more diligent with weighing and measuring my food.  A lot of people ask me what I eat. So I thought I would share my lunch. It is 355 calories and very filling. I made a pizza out of “Flat-out” Pizza crust, 1/2 ounce pepperoni, and 1 ounce of Mozerella cheese. Along with my pizza, I had some raw cauliflower with a tablespoon vegetable dip made with yogurt and unsweetened ice tea. I weigh and measure everything I make. Eating healthy is not hard, you just have to take the time to prepare. I also posted the breakdown on My Fitness Pal. That app, is one of the main tools I use several times a day. But the results are so worth it! 147 pounds down!

Here are the links to sign up for the weight loss groups. They are really filling up fast, I’d hate for you to lose out. Just think how good you will feel in 6 months! If I can do it, so can you!

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Ramp it up!

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There is no coasting in this business of weight loss. I feel lately I have been dragging my feet a bit. I’m losing roughly 1 maybe 2 pounds a week. a total of 147 pounds down. That would be fine if I was in the 200s, but I am not even 1/2 way there. I have big plans in the future, and they require me to apply more effort if I am going to;

  • Be under 300 pounds by the first of the year
  • Launch my coaching career
  • Go to Sweden, and the Scandinavian countries and Russia next Spring with the group from WIT Community College
  • ride RAGBRAI next Summer.
  • make enough money to get my remodeling finished on my home from 2013

If I was in my 30s or even 40s, I would have the luxury of time, I could lose it slowly, but I am 58, and it’s now or never. And NO looking back. I spent way too much time being a victim to the tragedies in my life. They became excuses to wallow in my sorrow.

I am sure you all get sick of reading about my constantly whining about ramping it up. But honestly, there is no coasting in this bike ride through life. If I coast, I soon fall over. Getting re-started, or as my friend Derek says, “getting the train out of the train station” is too hard to do over and over again.

So here is my plan, join the Y, and make it my daily job to go and spend quality time there, and focus on getting fit. This is the hardest part, I hate to sweat! But I hate being fat more, and missing out on the really sweet things in life,  so “Sweat I Will”

My friend Diana has been helping me get the weeds out of my yard. last Friday I was out there with her taking care of the weeds, and I got infested with Chiggers. The funny thing is, I did not notice them until Sunday. We both got bitten up. And why is it, they like to bite me in the hardest places for me to itch? (TMI) This is why I hate to be out doors.

I eat a lot of ground beef. So I lately I have switched it out for LEAN ground turkey. I made an awesome meal last night with Ground turkey, frozen stir fry veggie, lite Alfredo sauce in a jar, and a LITTLE macaroni. I added some red pepper flakes and some dried spaghetti seasoning. It was so good, I wanted to share the recipe.

it made 2 giant portions. But could easily feed 4 if you made a nice salad to go with it. I named it Turkey Primavera.  I hope you give it a try!

Turkey Primavera
5 ounces Lean ground turkey (200 calories)
2 cups stir fry frozen vegetables
(160 calories)
3 ounces uncooked macaroni (300 )
1 cup Lite Asiago Romano Alfredo Sauce (180 calories)
optional:
red pepper flakes to taste
spicy spaghetti seasoning
Cook macaroni, 1/2 way, leave it a bit crunchy
brown turkey, add 2 cups stir fry frozen veggies and 1 cup Alfredo sauce.
add macaroni, salt pepper and seasonings. Put in a casserole dish and in a 400 degree oven for 20-25 minutes.
makes 2 LARGE portions
300 calories per serving.

 

My Plan

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I have always loved this simple little illustration. If we wrote a script of how our life would take place, it would usually be a straight shot to where we want to go. I thank God for not answering some of those prayers that would have taken me in a different direction, and missed the great life lessons along the way.

When I set out to lose weight last April, I had no idea in a little over a year, I would have 145 pounds off, become a Certified Life coach, complete my Associates Degree (more about that later) lose some friendships that I thought were for a lifetime and very close to my heart, yet, make friends that have become close to my heart and are going to be with my the rest of my life. I am glad I did not know the details of the path God had chosen for me. It would have stopped my success, either with deep sadness, or anxiety as to how I was going to ever pull it off. I’m still just a bit over 1/3 of my journey to regain my health, and I trust God taking the wheel. Why? Because He has never failed me. Confused me, yes, caused me to wonder if He is there, yes, but NEVER has He failed me.

I found out last Thursday, after having my transcripts looked over, that I meet the qualifications to get my Associates Degree. WOW! It was such a great surprise! All my life I wanted to get my degree, and just never did it. I started taking classes at Western Iowa Tech after my husband died. I really struggled getting to the classes at my size, and age. I would go to the school at 6 AM, to get a decent parking place into the school. (yes 6 AM, I have a handicapped sticker, but sadly there are those who use Grandmas parking stickers and take up the handicapped parking early) I would shuffle my 500 pound body to the bench outside the building, then shuffle to the bench inside the building, then I proceed to walk to class from bench to bench until I got there. Sadly, when I was about to finish, my financing ended, and my mobility got worse so I just quit. All I needed was one hour of math or science to graduate. I had tried and failed that Algebra class several times and could not get it. But due to the mercy of God and the requirements changing, I have more than enough credits to graduate.  I am so thankful. I will be pursuing my Bachelors degree as well. I refuse to let age stop me. I’m going to get older anyhow, with or without my degree.

I just wanted to write this to encourage you. Sometimes we want to accomplish something, and we don’t even start, because we do not see how we could possibly do it. My word to you today is to just start, and let God work out the details. As long as your following your heart and passion, it will all work out. There are so many things I did not even try, due to my inability to trust, or take a chance.

I have been struggling with night eating once again. My weight has stalled a few weeks, and I kind of kept it a secret how concerned I really was. I found myself standing in front of the fridge at night, eating cottage cheese out of the carton, shoving slices of cheese in my mouth, eating a handful of saltines, and gulping down milk from the carton. not tracking them. I never binge on candy, desserts or cookies. You won’t seem me ordering fries from McDonalds. But where I struggle is the deep urge to eat at night, and I rationalize it in my head by saying it’s not unhealthy food I am eating. I finally spoke to some trusted friends, and made myself accountable. I have very dear friend, who says, “We are only as sick as our secrets”. So, I tattled on myself, it’s no longer secret. I have had a much better week, due to being a snitch on myself. I have been texting a couple of trusted friends after I close my kitchen at night, to be accountable, then texting them in the morning to report my success. I also put an obstacle, my hamper, in the doorway of my kitchen, so I would have to move it and think about what I was about to do.

I keep trying to analyze why I struggle with this. But if I did find out why, would it help? It’s that primal urge that is  the problem. Not some deep seeded issue from my childhood, that I can’t remember. Even if I knew what the trigger was, it would still flip that “URGE” switch. I think it’s the urge I have to conquer. I have explored all those reasons over a lifetime of therapy, and counseling and knowing, does nothing. If I had an urge to jump off the bridge, wouldn’t my brain be capable of stoping me? Of course it would. So, if I can stop myself from imediate physical harm, I can surely stop myself from over eating. When I tell that part of my brain to Shut up, and that it’s not the boss of me, it seems to diminish.

Here is another question I have pondered on. Why is it, I struggle to eat at night, but when I sleep, and wake up in the morning, that deep urge to eat is gone? It tells me those urges are imposters, not hunger .I don’t know why, but what I do know is when I get past the urge, and go to sleep, it always passes. So, why worry about tomorrow?

Like I said in the beginning, it’s a good thing we do not need to know the journey, the only thing we need to do is start on the right path. As my buddy Derek said last week, “Get that train out of the station”

Isn’t it interesting how we can be perfect to the letter 99% of the day with our food plan. In that 1% of the day, we can undo the last 23.9 hours! It takes me less that one minute to shove a few pieces of cheese and gulp down enough milk in the middle of the night to ruin all my hard work. I refuse to be defeated!

Have a Happy and safe 4th of July everyone!