Fasting the 12 steps, and growing

Happy New Year everyone! I thought I’d post about how my wellness plan is going. I’m doing good. I have 174 pounds down. I have been doing intermittently fasting. Over Christmas I fell off the wagon, then I got sick, and it took me a while to get my groove back, but I’m feeling very cautiously confident.

So, you may ask, how exactly am I fasting. The good thing about fasting is how flexible it is. You kind of adapt it to your lifestyle. I highly recommend the book “Delay Don’t Deny” but Gin Stephens. I was having a little trouble getting back on the wagon a few weeks ago, and gave this a lot of thought. What am I good at, regarding my food plan, and where do my biggest struggles lie?

I’m good at fasting, I can fast pretty easily 40 hours without much trouble. The only problem is, I have a terrible time sleeping when I am fasting. I was thinking of breaking my fast later in the day so I can go to bed with some food in my belly, but fasting 2-3 over nights a week really works for me. I may just have to struggle through it and hope I adjust in time.

I am rarely hungry in the mornings, so that is the perfect time to start a fast. I actually start my fast when I go to bed at night, fast the whole next day until the next morning. So roughly 36-40 hours, eat in an 8 hour window, then start the cycle over again. I am working towards shortening that window and when exactly is best to open it.

So what I struggle with…. (probably as some of you can guess), is when I open my window, and break my fast, it’s like a switch that gets flipped, and if I cave, I can keep caving and gain momentum with the eating, and eat 2-3 days worth of calories in a short amount of time. So I have upped my accountability level, I have connected with a fabulous support group of others who are fasting on line, and track my food on the eating days. I’m still working on getting in the groove with this, but I feel I am almost in a solid rhythm.

It’s really humbling to be leading and coaching a weight loss group while I am working through my own struggles. I have had several folks criticize me for this. (of course not to my face, but it always gets back to me) And as much as I’d like to say it does not effect me, it still does. But I can’t make everyone like me, so I will use this hurt as an example of what to never do to someone else, because I know how painful it is. I would rather be honest and transparent, then keep my secrets to myself, or find excuses for my struggles.

I’ve been reading a book called The Science of Self-discipline by Peter Hollins. I found it on Amazon. The Science of Self-Discipline

It was recommended by a member of my fasting group, it brings a more scientific and behavioral approach to willpower. Now, before you recovery people start hating, I have not thrown out my recovery tools. I just want to take a wholistic approach to weight loss. I have noticed for me, I need more than the 12 steps. For some, it is their “ah-ha” moment and they get on that band wagon, the weight falls off, and they move forward with their lives. I wish I was one of those folks, if you are one of those folks, I am jealous of you. But I have noticed, for some, like me, the weight comes off at first, then, we hit a wall. I know everyone quotes this, but “insanity is doing the same thing over and over and getting the same results” I do not want to be that way. If my efforts are not getting results, it’s time to try something new.

All my life I would refer to past weight loss seasons in my life, and tell myself, “if I can only do that again, I will have success” Then fail, once again. It’s comfortable to stay with what is familiar even when it worked in the past. But for me, maybe it has run it’s course, and it’s time to stretch and grow.

Hope you all had a Happy New Year, and are well. I’m looking forward to my best year ever. Which will require some deep stretching, transparency, and accountability. But it will be worth it! Blessings!