We are as Sick as our Secrets


A close friend of mine says, “We are as sick as out secrets” And boy did that ring true with me this week! I purged my kitchen from anything with white flour in it. I filled a whole box full to the top with pasta noodles and macaroni. What was I thinking having all that stashed away?

Another one of my smart friends once said, “we are so capable of rationalizing away any bad or self destructive behavior.” The box I filled was even surprising to me! Words like Secret, dishonesty, denial, and cheating are often associated with someone who is evil, or bad. But so much of our deceit can be wrapped up in shame, and fear. Holding onto something, knowing its not good for us and believing we can handle it in-spite of how it messes up our health and our lives.

I guess that is a true definition of an addict. I am a food addict. I’m not proud of it, but I am no longer ashamed of it. It’s simply who I am. No surprise here! When someone is 300, 400, or over 500 pounds, it does not take a rocket scientist to figure that out. But I always believed my obesity was something I could control with will power. I’m sure I still have battles ahead, but there is a surrender that I have experienced this week when I finally looked at my possible white flour addiction, and taking a serious look at the amount of carbs I am consuming.

I always kinda poo pooed people who referred to the affect  eating white flour and sugar had on them. Talking about withdraw symptoms when they changed their diet to healthier food. I kinda thought that was mostly results of someone who had more of a drama problem than food problem. I have always been a realist, and don’t easily buy into things that do not prove concrete evidence. OK, OK,I am a skeptic. But I think there maybe be something to this! I felt awful the first few days without white flour and processed food. I have pretty much been off sugar for a while now. But giving up my pasta, bagels and bread was the last thing I wanted to give up. I’m still not able to scream from the rooftops that I will never eat white flour again as long as I live. But, for today, I will stay abstinent. Whole wheat and grains may be optional in limited amounts, maybe not. But just for today, I am off the stuff!


Now, I’d like to mention once again about our December Speaker Series with the weight loss group I run with Sean Anderson. Starting December 7th, this is a 4 week series. One Tuesday a week the whole month of December you can listen on your phone, live, with some of the countries biggest experts on weight loss from a health and recovery perspective. If you happen to be shy, no one will call you out or ask you to say anything, is all you need to do is listen. We will give listeners an opportunity to write in questions anonymously. This is NOT about a diet or new weight loss product. We are not trying to get people to sign up for anything or buy anything. Sean and I simply pulled our resources of people we know who are experts at weight loss. And have had long careers assisting people who want to get healthy for life.  These folks are all about ending the struggle with your weight forever! Wouldn’t this be an incredible gift to give yourself this Christmas? Imagine going into the New Year with a weight loss instead of that dreaded holiday gain. And it is so affordable. The cost of a meal in a nice restaurant will cover this “life changing” event. This also includes a membership to the Secret Facebook page created exclusively for this event.  Here is the link to sign up!

                                 December Speaker Series

img_9619-copyIf you have any questions you can email me at totalkathy@aol.com

or call me at 712-259-1736


Thanks so much for taking the time to read my blog. I am a Baby Boomer from Nebraska blogging my way to good health. I am single, with no children, I have a little white maltese dog named Lily. Follow my journey to lose 1 pound 300 times.

4 thoughts on “We are as Sick as our Secrets

  1. Good job with the white flour!! That is so hard to do! Stay strong with the sugar too! Your body will get used to it and you will no longer crave pasta or bread! You can do this! ☺

  2. Kat

    Thinking of you this week as you navigate eliminating white flour. I appreciate the honesty in this post and can definitely relate to being triggered by “the whites”. I know when I stay away from white flower and sugar, I feel so much better! You are an inspiration to me!

    • Kathleen

      Thanks for your support. It’s hard to be transparent sometimes but things seem to lose their power once we bring light to them. Blessings!

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