Food for Thought

 

We got snow yesterday, lots of it, I think it ended up being a bit under 10 inches. So I am housebound for a bit. I’ve been really digging deep to get out of this weight loss funk I am in and get my rhythm back. I lost about 7 pounds last month, but I’m still not in a the rhythm I want to be in.

I did some changes in my plan, and my support. I have added another friend, daily, to my food plan and support. I like the simple structure, and accountability this brings. I have been planning all my food at the beginning of the day, or the night before. I track it on MFP, and send it to my friend every day.

I have only been doing this a few days, but I am kind of surprised what it has shown me about myself. I use to just plan my meals, Β meal by meal, and randomly snacked with sloppy accuracy. I have not fully gotten the night eating Β under control. It comes in waves, and sometimes I get up and eat something that is not all that bad, but just the fact that I get out of bed in the middle of the night to eat is not good. I never ever do that because I am hungry. It’s usually done when I wake in the middle of the night and feel so alone. I am sure I use food to comfort. I am adding more accountability to that as well.

So getting back to what I have learned. When my food is planed out ahead of time, it seems to release me from thinking about what I am going to have for the next meal. I did a lot of thinking about food through out the day. A LOT! More than I realized. In fact I noticed how much my head goes to food by how many times I had food thoughts yesterday and remembered it was already planned, and then dismissed it from my brain.

I also found out that planning my food keeps me from cooking a meal as if it’s a craft or art project. I don’t know if its because I am so creative and right brained, but cooking to me is fun. I am a creative soul, and realize I am happiest when I am creating something. So it stands to reason when I have a food addiction, and get stimulated creatively, the combination is lethal. But for me, cooking and food should not be in that category. I know many of you do not get this at all. I have friends who hate to cook, and find it a chore. But it’s always been a creative outlet for me, and I am just beginning to realize the extent of this in my life. When I cook I never use a recipe, or if I do, I aulter it. I spent way too much of my time watching Food TV, scouring through recipes on line and even planning my grocery list. I frequently order my groceries on line, and have them delivered. I have found myself shopping for food as if I’m on a shopping spree.

A close friend of mine says, we are all teachers to each other, even the people around us that have bad habits or struggles, are teachers of what we do not want to be. I’m not naming names here and I am counting myself as well, but I have noticed a common denominator among my biggest and most food addicted friends. Some of us are more than obsessed with eating food, we are obsessed with planing and preparing it as well. I use to cook for others a lot, and I never really saw it, but I was doing it for me, mostly. It just took me until now to really be honest with myself. Of course it was a way I showed love to family and friends. Β The accolades from my friend about the meal I made felt good, but it went beyond that for me. I almost got high planning and assembling a special meal for myself or my guests. It was a way I could justify making a giant pan of lasagna. Or fill my crockpot with a Pork butt for BBQ, and of course all the sides that go with it.

This does not mean I will quit having friends over for dinner, it just means I am aware if it, and my weight loss efforts work best when I;

  • Plan my food for the day the night before or early morning
  • Be accountable by sharing it with someone
  • Stay in daily touch with people I trust for support, that are honest, yet nurturing

I plan my days food on My Fitness Pal, and sent it to my accountability friend, so if you are my friend on My Fitness Pal and it appears I have eating a days worth of food before Breakfast, don’t be alarmed! If you are not my friend on www.myfitnesspal.com feel free to be my friend, I am totalkathy .

Have a great weekend everyone! Be Blessed!

 

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Thanks so much for taking the time to read my blog. I am a Baby Boomer from Nebraska blogging my way to good health. I am single, with no children, I have a little white maltese dog named Lily. Follow my journey to lose 1 pound 300 times.

5 thoughts on “Food for Thought

  1. Dawn

    What a great post Kathleen and so insightful. I swear it felt like I could have wrote it myself πŸ™‚ I had to stop watching the food shows at night as I found them triggering to me to want to run into the kitchen and cook something lol.

    I too am now sharing my food chart with someone daily and I too find it very helpful. For me, opening up my food to others has always been helpful as I think accountability is so important to someone like me who can convince myself about so many things when it comes to food πŸ™‚ I have told my TOPS folks for years that we all have our secret relationship with food and that letting others in is a great way to not feel shame or guilt and to make me think for sure before putting something in my mouth.

    I too agree that everyone can be our teacher πŸ™‚ I’m glad to have you here being mine, making me think about so many things πŸ™‚

    I can say I have come a long way with my cooking. I too love to feed people πŸ™‚ I use to love being the mom that could run in the kitchen and whip up a batch of cookies or something if my husband or kids said they wanted some πŸ™‚ or a cake or whatever πŸ™‚ it felt like my mom gift to them through the years. I’ve changed so many recipes to healthier versions through trial and error and it’s felt so rewarding to feed everyone healthier foods πŸ™‚ I also had to just give up some recipes as there wasn’t a good way to make them still taste similar. Baking has been an ongoing experiment I haven’t quite got yet, as healthy sweets just don’t seem to work to well lol. But I keep trying πŸ™‚

    I also found a great way around my “large volume” cooking πŸ™‚ I just pack up leftovers in single servings and put the over flow in the fridge and freezer. It’s been great these past many years never knowing what I might pull out and get to have for lunch πŸ™‚ It’s 4 mins from freezer to microwave and I have a healthy meal for myself πŸ™‚ It’s also been a great way to allow my daughter (she’s 15 now) to come home from school and eat a real meal instead of just snack on stuff waiting for something better.

    Oh, I also am a night snacker and drinking hot tea has helped me a lot. I like milk in mine so that little bit of dairy really helps curb my appetite πŸ™‚ I’ve also just done my best not to beat myself up when it happens. I also often find myself up in the middle of the night eating after going to the bathroom. My son works nights so he’s often up to chat with a bit so for me it’s not loneliness I don’t think, not quite sure what it is. Sometimes I think it’s just something I’ve always done and it’s hard to let go of but I continue to try.

    Anyway, I could ramble on at you forever I’m sure lol but I better get back to work. I was just thinking of you this morning thinking I wish I had wrote down some of the folks numbers so I could put yours in my phone. Hope the snow melts soon for you πŸ™‚

  2. nixpix

    Hope you are doing OK. Have missed your blogging. I don’t often post, but I do read every blog you write and really enjoy them and am praying you are doing well.

    • Kathleen

      Thanks for missing me, I have had such slow weight loss, one or two pounds every few weeks. I don’t know what to say, I hate it when bloggers whine on their blogs about a plateau. I’m working through it. I plan on being a bit more regular. Your message mean a lot to me!

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