We got snow yesterday, lots of it, I think it ended up being a bit under 10 inches. So I am housebound for a bit. I’ve been really digging deep to get out of this weight loss funk I am in and get my rhythm back. I lost about 7 pounds last month, but I’m still not in a the rhythm I want to be in.
I did some changes in my plan, and my support. I have added another friend, daily, to my food plan and support. I like the simple structure, and accountability this brings. I have been planning all my food at the beginning of the day, or the night before. I track it on MFP, and send it to my friend every day.
I have only been doing this a few days, but I am kind of surprised what it has shown me about myself. I use to just plan my meals, meal by meal, and randomly snacked with sloppy accuracy. I have not fully gotten the night eating under control. It comes in waves, and sometimes I get up and eat something that is not all that bad, but just the fact that I get out of bed in the middle of the night to eat is not good. I never ever do that because I am hungry. It’s usually done when I wake in the middle of the night and feel so alone. I am sure I use food to comfort. I am adding more accountability to that as well.
So getting back to what I have learned. When my food is planed out ahead of time, it seems to release me from thinking about what I am going to have for the next meal. I did a lot of thinking about food through out the day. A LOT! More than I realized. In fact I noticed how much my head goes to food by how many times I had food thoughts yesterday and remembered it was already planned, and then dismissed it from my brain.
I also found out that planning my food keeps me from cooking a meal as if it’s a craft or art project. I don’t know if its because I am so creative and right brained, but cooking to me is fun. I am a creative soul, and realize I am happiest when I am creating something. So it stands to reason when I have a food addiction, and get stimulated creatively, the combination is lethal. But for me, cooking and food should not be in that category. I know many of you do not get this at all. I have friends who hate to cook, and find it a chore. But it’s always been a creative outlet for me, and I am just beginning to realize the extent of this in my life. When I cook I never use a recipe, or if I do, I aulter it. I spent way too much of my time watching Food TV, scouring through recipes on line and even planning my grocery list. I frequently order my groceries on line, and have them delivered. I have found myself shopping for food as if I’m on a shopping spree.
A close friend of mine says, we are all teachers to each other, even the people around us that have bad habits or struggles, are teachers of what we do not want to be. I’m not naming names here and I am counting myself as well, but I have noticed a common denominator among my biggest and most food addicted friends. Some of us are more than obsessed with eating food, we are obsessed with planing and preparing it as well. I use to cook for others a lot, and I never really saw it, but I was doing it for me, mostly. It just took me until now to really be honest with myself. Of course it was a way I showed love to family and friends. The accolades from my friend about the meal I made felt good, but it went beyond that for me. I almost got high planning and assembling a special meal for myself or my guests. It was a way I could justify making a giant pan of lasagna. Or fill my crockpot with a Pork butt for BBQ, and of course all the sides that go with it.
This does not mean I will quit having friends over for dinner, it just means I am aware if it, and my weight loss efforts work best when I;
- Plan my food for the day the night before or early morning
- Be accountable by sharing it with someone
- Stay in daily touch with people I trust for support, that are honest, yet nurturing
I plan my days food on My Fitness Pal, and sent it to my accountability friend, so if you are my friend on My Fitness Pal and it appears I have eating a days worth of food before Breakfast, don’t be alarmed! If you are not my friend on www.myfitnesspal.com feel free to be my friend, I am totalkathy .
Have a great weekend everyone! Be Blessed!