Stupid Scale!!!!!

This week seems to be flying by. It is Thursday already. I didn’t want to tell this, but after being the most diligent I have ever been about my food and portions last week, I was up 3 pounds, pretty discouraging. But I don’t feel hopeless, just frustrated and discouraged. I know if I remain steady the scale will respond. I weight on Monday, I will let you all know either way.

I am still feeling a lot of anxiety about this big event I am going to over the week of the 4th. I pray I can gather up my dignity and just open up and have fun. I feel like such a failure. I don’t think I have ever fought so hard for a better future in my life. But you would never know that about me by looking at me. Lets be honest here, people always judge you by what you look like. When I am in this state of mind, it is so hard for me to make small talk. And parties are all about small talk. My life has been so serious and isolated for so long, I find it hard to lighten up. I am the very thing I hate to see in other people. But I am going to try. I really need to be with people.

I started an Overeaters Anonymous group at my local library. If you do not know about OA, it is a weight loss group that uses the tools of the 12 steps of recovery. It’s anonymous, and I’m not really suppose to to talk about it, I’m sure I’ll hear from the OA police if they read this. I have done everything I can think of to promote this group that is within the boundaries of the rules, yet no one has yet to attend. I have been going up to the library every Saturday at 11 AM for about 6 weeks now. I spread out all my pamphlets and prepare for a meeting, but no one comes. I’m not sure how to promote a meeting that you can’t talk about publicly. But if anyone wants to come I’ll be there. There are no scales, no fees, no diet, and it’s free.

Hope you all have a great weekend! Blessings!


Thanks so much for taking the time to read my blog. I am a Baby Boomer from Nebraska blogging my way to good health. I am single, with no children, I have a little white maltese dog named Lily. Follow my journey to lose 1 pound 300 times.

5 thoughts on “Stupid Scale!!!!!

  1. nixpix

    Wow, you are doing all the right things. Pushing yourself socially with the party and the OA group. Tracking your food…..Just stay the course and you’ll have success. I think that is awsome that you started an OA group. Its has to be tough to have no one show up, but they will. Eventually people will come and they are going to be so glad you are there. Just keep on, keep on. I know its tough, but…….

  2. Hi. New reader…former 12 Stepper. Unless rules have changed, you can publicize your OA meeting’s date, time and place. You just can’t reveal who attends or talk about anything others say/reveal. you will often see notices on church bulletin boards, outside of grocery stores, in newspapers even.

    I’m pretty sure you can get online and check that out if you don’t have a contact person from another group meeting helping you.

    Best wishes!


    • Kathleen

      Thanks Deb, I have put up posters at almost every public bulletin bored in the town. I have registered it on the OA site, and called the local OA leaders in the nearby towns. I’m pretty much about ready to just quit. I’m giving it one more month. Thanks for reading!

  3. Caron

    This post brought back a memory about a crazy weigh in I had at Weight Watchers many years ago. I weighed first thing in the morning and was so happy I had reached my 10 percent lost so I could get that key chain I’d been hoping to receive. That night at my meeting, I got on the scale with a smile on my face happily babbling about reaching my 10 percent and my leader was looking at me so sad. She kind of leaned in and whispered “you’re up”. When I looked at my weight it was SEVEN pounds more than when I had weighed at home that morning which I could scarcely believe.

    After a lot of thinking, I concluded that my weight soared during the day because of some really salty cheese soup I had at lunch. After that, I always watched the salt carefully the day before and the day of a weigh in.

    I’m in no way saying that is why your weight went up, but I am saying so many factors can influence what we weigh from one day to the next. Staying consistent will get results, but it may not come as soon as we hope. Hang in there. 🙂

    • Kathleen

      Well that makes me feel a little better, although I’m sorry that happened to you. Im just trying to keep moving forward. I tell myself as long as I stay consistent, the scale numbers will follow. Thanks for the kind message!

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