It feels like I’m spinning my wheels today. I stepped on the scale after a really good week, and I have not lost an ounce. I also have taxes due on my house in 6 weeks, it is very urgent. I seem to take a few steps forward and one back. I just want a break, it’s been a long hard year of staying on track. I want my pay off now!!!!! But it does not work that way. I long to get back to work and be productive again.
It’s like being on Let’s make a Deal! I have won quite a bit, 115 pounds down, but I’m not stopping here, no, I’m going for the “Big Deal of the Day” Except this game is no gamble, I won’t lose, I will win! There are no Zonks when you are putting forth all your effort.
So I am going to just turn it over to God, and not become a helpless victim, but stay consistent to my food and life plan. And my budget. I love to sew, I love felt, and color! I make these little baby shoes with 100% Merino wool, all stitched by hand. I want to earn the money to pay my house taxes to keep my home, I do not expect God or anyone to just drop $1500 in my lap. I will earn it. But FYI, if you want a really sweet baby gift, here is a link to my Facebook Page for my Felt Baby Shoes. Just click on that link and check out the photo section. Leave me an email if you are interested in having something made. My email is firstname.lastname@example.org
I use to just be a helpless victim when “life happened”. Whine and feel sorry for myself, and let people rescue me. We are so capable of doing more than we think we can. I would be so defeated I did not even entertain the thought of taking charge of any tough situations. I am really embarrassed about that. There were a lot of years I just waiting for God to rescue me.
So I will hold on tight to that trapeze bar, stay focused, and productive. This fat girl is not going to fall now, not after losing 115 pounds within the last 10 months. Wouldn’t it be a shame to go back now? That tragedy will not be me. If I die, I will die trying. I have a purpose, one that has not even been started up yet. It’s like having a shiny new Caddy in the garage just waiting to be driven.
Honestly I am not sure where I am going to come up with the money for my taxes, but I know my God has me in the palm of his hand. Meanwhile I will not be sitting on my hiney eating bon bons waiting for some supernatural miracle to happen. I am going to do whatever I can to help myself and trust I can do this. This road to health is not just about eating healthy, it’s about managing all aspects of my life, and being grateful along the way. I don’t really have the time to whine and feel sorry for myself if I keep trying. Being pro-active really shakes the self-pity away.
But meanwhile I will stay on my food plan, that never changes no matter what. Outside forces will not have any affect on my road to health. That is the task on the top of my list, daily. It is my lifeline. Thanks for reading and always keeping it real. The messages I have received the last few weeks have been overwhelmingly kind. You can’t know how much strength it gives me. Blessings to all of you!
Below are a few pictures of my work. Several if these were special orders. I like to embroider the baby’s name on the shoe. They make really cute Christmas ornaments after the child outgrown them.