Tiny Bubbles

 

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Many people lose weight for different reasons. Some for an event, some to look and dresser nicer. Some for their husbands, kids, or grandkids. All of those are good reasons. I am looking forward to the day I get to go to the mall and shop for clothes, even the plus sizes will be a big step for me. But that’s not the motivating factor for me.

My motivation for weight loss is a bit different. I am not sure if it’s my age, the fact that I have no family, or the long past I have of losing and gaining weight so many times in my life, watching the losses happen gradually.

This I know, it is the simplest things that are missing in my life that I am anxiously awaiting to enjoy. The things I use to take for granted, the things that do not require money, or status.

Today I took a bubble bath for the first time in probably 10 years. I can not tell you how good it felt to soak in that warm tub. I will never take a warm bath for granted, every again. I am having  restored experiences every day. There is a wonderful year ahead of many things I will have gratitude for.

I am grateful for the things that I have lost when I was so fat, isolated and unhealthy. Some of the things I am looking forward to doing again are;

  • Waking up and not feeling so much pain when I take that first step out of bed
  • cleaning my own home
  • tying my shoes
  • holding a baby on my lap, instead of my chest, and looking down at it’s face
  • not worrying if where ever I go will have steps
  • not thinking about if a chair will hold me
  • being able to buy a car, and not being concerned how I will squeeze behind the steering wheel be a factor.
  • Sleeping in a bed without tons of pillows to prop me up so I can breath
  • taking a hike, and seeing the view from the top
  • not feeling like the elephant man when I walk into a room of strangers
  • not worrying what a small child will say when I pass the child in the grocery store isle
  • running to my car in the rain
  • no concern what soever how far away from the store I need to park
  • sitting in church and being able to stand during worship the whole way through
  • getting on the floor to play with a small child
  • taking a trip by airplane and having no anticipation about the seat belts fitting
  • slow dancing and being held close
  • having the stamina to take a long walk
  • ride a bike
  • fitting through a turnstile
  • blending in with a crowd
  • going to a sports event and no concern if I will fit in the seats or climb up the stairs to the nosebleed section
  • getting in a friend’s care without worrying if I will fit
  • feeling feminine again
  • seeing my toes when I stand up
  • getting on my knees to pray
  • giving someone hope that struggles like me
  • Being productive and having a real job with co-workers
  • going inside the bank instead of the drive up

Those are only a few things, the list is even longer. The things in life that have the most meaning are not wealth, looks or status. They are in relationships, the people we love. Being content when you are alone, and knowing you will leave an impact of some kind when you leave this planet.

Not until I realized my desire for life had little to do with food, and more about really living, could I help myself restore my life. With that perspective, the food is simply about following a plan and staying grateful and focused. I have to always remember to not get caught up in the superficial things that don’t really matter in the long run. I have an army of people around me that help keep me focused, you, my readers are among that army. honesty and accountability is the cornerstone of my health plan. Knowing that God loves me and values me the same when I was 537 pounds, or when I reach my goal weight of 240, or 140. My weight loss is simply a health issue. My value as a person and a child of God never changes. Blessings everyone!

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Thanks so much for taking the time to read my blog. I am a Baby Boomer from Nebraska blogging my way to good health. I am single, with no children, I have a little white maltese dog named Lily. Follow my journey to lose 1 pound 300 times.

5 thoughts on “Tiny Bubbles

  1. Jeanette

    You are right God loves us for who we are not the outside shell. I know with me the devil has tried to tell me how worthless I am and far too often I have listened to his lies. Thanks for letting me share this journey with you through your blog. You are helping others as you help yourself.

    • Kathleen

      Thanks so much for your support and taking the time to respond. You are cherished, not just by me, but your Heavenly Father as well. Blessings!

  2. Rose

    I too, have all those reasons to lose. I want to look like a female dressed beautifully. And yet, losing 76 lbs and maintaining that for quite some time I find that I am not comfortable with what was beginning to happen as a newer version of me. If that makes sense. The uncomfortable feeling when a man gets a little to flirty with me. The compliments. I am in sabotage mode right now.
    If I eat and gain a little I don’t have to put the work in. I don’t have to have people talk to me and compliment me. I don’t have to have guys flirt with me …. if I’m that “fat” chick I once was.. *truth is I’m still a fat girl* just not as fat as I was…. anyway… off track there. If I am the fat chick again no one will care or bother me. My husband will love me whole again. So I’m in that sabotage mode.

    But! I recognize it this time! Which is a first for me. Actually Sean gave me that AHA moment with one of his posts recently! As soon as he wrote it I said.. “That’s me!”
    And I like that because its a first for me.
    Will I always be the fat girl? I don’t know. But I like all your reasons you wrote down. They are all mine and then some. So I’m taking this as a hit on the head and going to “buck up buttercup” and get moving again!

    Will the fat chick always be instilled in me? Yes…. but I can change that! Just like you . One day at a time. 🙂

    Merry Christmas!
    Rosie

    • Kathleen

      Oh Rose, I totally get what you are saying. But who you really are, the woman God created has nothing to do with being fat. The beauty of you is the same at any size. Once you see what God sees in you, and your value is greater than that number on the scale, you will be able to let others love you. You are so worthy of being loved, not in-spite of who you are but because of who you are. Be Blessed my friend!

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