I just thought it might be fun to see the changes over the last 10 months. 118 pounds down. The pictures below are the progression of loss over the last 10 months. Next year will be a big year of change and I will soon weight in the 300’s. I know many of you think that seems huge, but to me, it will be a big step into a normal, happy, life without isolation. Thanks for following my story. Your support has been more than I ever expected.
I am alone this Christmas, I am at peace with it. I have had friends stop by today and check on me. I have hope instead of wishing in my heart for what is to come. There is a difference. I had to find the value of Kathy when she was over 500 pounds to realize she worth saving. The kind of value that does not come from the people around you, your looks, or your status. It is the understanding of how God cherishes me, and has trusted me with talents that no one else has. You have all that as well. For years I tried to lose weight to become more valuable. Every time I failed I hated myself more.
Don’t ever give up on yourself. Your life has meaning and purpose. I could have been a tragedy or I could be victorious. It is a choice. God puts exactly what or who you need in your path at the very moment you need it. But until we decide to do it, instead of saying we are trying, nothing really happens.
Tonight, on Christmas Eve my dinner was skinless chicken breast from a rotisserie chicken, a potato with melted cheese, and fresh asparagus. All weighed and measured. I do not feel deprived or that I am missing out on anything. I will wake up tomorrow with fresh confidence that will carry me through another day.
I am finally feeling I am making my peace with food. I still have struggles, but I have tools that I can use, and people I can depend on. As long as I keep the maintenance up with connecting with others, actively doing what I need to do for self care, and staying close to God, my body and my mind will continue to heal.
Praying all of you have the best Christmas ever! Wishing good health for all of you! Blessings!