No, not angel wings, I’m no angel, just forgiven and honest. But I do feel a growth spurt around the corner.
Honestly, it has been a long, long, LONG Winter. Normally I love Winter. But the things I love about Winter are all about snuggling in with food, and sitting and watching movies, and doing… well, nothing. I am ready to fly!
Some fears are a good warning to be smart. So honestly, I really do not thing it safe for me to go out when it’s icy. One fall and I am doomed. So I have been cooped up in this house for what feels like months. It is starting to feel like Narnia. In the book “The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe” by CS Lewis. It was winter forever, and felt like Spring would never come. I have questioned a few times if I was living in Narnia.
The days are long, and sometimes I wonder if progress is being made, but It is! And the numbers on the scale are a testimony of that. I do not believe the scale is a measure of our self worth, or self-esteem. There is so much smack talk about the scale, and sometimes we can take that to the other extreme, using it as an excuse to not be accountable for our food consumption. But honestly, it can be your friend, but ONLY if you use it as an honest and tangible measure of your weight loss progress, not your character.
I have has some financial issues I have been worried about. I am slowly working my way through it, myself. That feels good. I believe all of this is related. Taking charge of my own health, and finances are all connected. There are a lot of other things as well, our clutter in our homes, even our relationships.
Speaking of relationships, I may get some flack for this, but I really do not like those meme’s about friendships still being there after not seeing each other for months and years. Relationships that have great meaning to you need to be honored by nurturing them. I believe it’s important. I have a friend I love dearly that I went to beauty school with. We revived our relationship last Summer. We never had any conflict, but life happened, and she raised her family, I did my life. I am so deeply grateful to have Diana back in my life, and if I was to do it over again, I would have maintained that relationship over the years. I missed out on a lot of milestones with her, by not maintaining that relationship. No one makes me feel as good about myself and makes me laugh more that Diana. Diana has walked me through some tough times in the last 10 months, and she has brought so much laughter in the days my world seemed so serious. I love you so much Diana! I have several friendships I wish I would have maintained and nurtured. But it’s never too late.
So if you think you do not see progress because your road is so long, take a quick peek behind you, but not for very long, just long enough to see the progress you have made. You may be surprised the ground you have gained during the times you did not feel you were moving. Spring is just around the corner!