I have cabin fever. I have not seen a human since last Friday. I’m OK, really, I’m kind of use to being alone a lot. I am looking forward to spring so I can get out, work again, and see people everyday. I am so ready to be productive again and make a good living. I’m a bit ashamed to say that for the last several years, after all my savings were depleted, I have been living off disability. Don’t get me wrong, I am so grateful for it. But I, no way plan on living on disability the rest of my life. I have to be productive. It is very important for my self esteem and confidence. I am grateful I have been able to sew these little felt baby shoes to make ends meet, and for those of you who have graciously purchased them. I’ve also humbly, hade a few generous gifts from some dear people that have seemed to come when my needs were at their greatest. Thank you for listening to God’s whisper in your ear. I was truly in need. It’s important for me to say, publically, that I will be paying it forward the rest of my living days. It’s amazing how receiving help in the neediest time in my life, will in turn make me a better giver.
So, I have been spending the last several days reading mostly Brennan Manning’s writings. I am so glad I ran into his books. I am also watching a lot of Netflix. I am sure like everyone else in the mid-west that got hit with this Blizzard. Have you guys watched Heartland on Netflix? Oh my Heck! (as my friend Stephanie would say) It is so good! There are 9 seasons, and 6 of them are on Netflix. It is the longest running show in Canada.
(taken from Wikipedia)
Heartland is a Canadian family drama television series which debuted on CBC on October 14, 2007.
The series is based on the Heartland book series by Lauren Brooke. The TV series changes the setting from Virginia, USA (in the original novels) to the small fictional town of Hudson, Alberta located in the foothills of the Alberta Rockies. Heartland follows sisters Amy and Lou Fleming, their grandfather Jack Bartlett, and Heartland’s primary ranch hand, Ty Borden, through the highs and lows of life on a horse ranch in cattle country. The story details how, although Amy and Lou’s mother was killed in a car accident, the family continues to keep her dream alive by healing abused and neglected horses at Heartland. Amy (Amber Marshall) faces adversity, but she overcomes every obstacle that stands in front of her.
Don’t judge it by the first show, which was there pilot. It was kinda cheesy like those Hallmark movies without the continuous annoying music in the background. But it gained in popularity the acting got better, and the budget got bigger so the show got better. Heartland not only has some pretty good actors, they can also really ride a horse, rope, jump and barrel race. Unless the editing is spectacular, I think it’s the actors doing all the stunts. It has adventure, romance, mystery, and action. And, lots and lots of horses, in the most beautiful country scenery you could possibly imagine. There is no vulgarity or anything that you could not watch as a family. A pretty rare things these days. The integrity of the show is very evident.
I have not been eating my way through this isolation and blizzard, which is what I use to do. And I have not gone out of my mind either. There is a peace and contentment I have experienced lately. It’s feels like a relief to not have that monkey on my back. There is by no means a cure, or arrival. But a calming peace. I’m not saying my struggles are over by a long shot. I am fragile, and only one cheese burger away from a binge. I believe it’s that fragility that keeps us close to God. I have made it great importance to not step over the line, not ever for “just now”, because there are “just now’s” all around us. Keep warm everyone!