Self- Sabotage


I use to think self-sabotage was something people consciously did. Sort of a way of stoping something they did not want to finish. Mostly because they didn’t want to do the task ahead. I feel a bit different about this these days. I listen to a lot of motivational podcasts. I listened to one today that really caused me to think about all the self-sabotaging I have done all my life. And it was all basically born out of resistance.

“The most toxic force on the planet. It stunts us and it makes us less than who we were born to be. “

The War of Art by Steven Pressfield

It’s so much easier to talk ourselves into immediate gratification instead of choosing long term goals. It talks us into doing in the short term, what we actually want in the long term. We settle for less than we deserve.

Resistance can be a  great tool to your success. Many times when we can’t decide what is best for us, the answer lies in what we are fighting against the most. The things we have the biggest desire for is often the thing we feel the most resistance. That is the very thing, when we let go of it, makes our biggest strides!

What we feed are the things in our life that will grow. Feed the things you are resistant against, and it will grow. Starve it, and it will shrink in power. You can tell when you are doing this by what happens when you give in to instant gratification, or food. It leaves you feeling empty, and hallow. Instant gratification leaves no lasting joy. It never fills us up. Never being satisfied.

I love word pictures, so I see my weight loss journey as me, walking against the wind in a Nebraska snow storm. The most beautiful view in any journey is on top of the mountain. It takes a lot of walking against the wind to get to the top. It’s much easier to walk with the wind, but that usually leads you to the lowest ground where there is no view. I’m willing to take the resistant path to get to the top. How about you?

I got news today that I will be taking classes starting in April to become a Certified Life Coach! It has truly been a miracle how this all evolved. As you all know I am temporary struggling financially right now. So it was an amazing blessings to find out I have been awarded a full scholarship to attend these classes.

Speak your truth, and always be willing to walk against the wind, and things will happen to you that you couldn’t even dream of. Who would guess, when I was at the end of my rope, weighting 537 pounds, shut down and dying a slow death, that I would get an opportunity to not only gain my life and health back, but I will be given the opportunity to help others along the way. God will use my darkest moments to inspire others. Be Blessed everyone!


Thanks so much for taking the time to read my blog. I am a Baby Boomer from Nebraska blogging my way to good health. I am single, with no children, I have a little white maltese dog named Lily. Follow my journey to lose 1 pound 300 times.

12 thoughts on “Self- Sabotage

  1. Linda Campbell

    Visualize…Dream it. BELIEVE IT WILL HAPPEN….YOU do SEE IT Kathy…look what’s happening, Kathy, your JOURNEY of INSPIRATION. LOSING 1 POUND 300 TIMES. It’s so amazing to watch your VISION unfold. To watch you save your life. To watch you change your life and many lives around you. More than you know. Mine for instance. That is why I call it your Journey of Inspiration.


  2. Hi Kathy, it’s Kerstin here from the group. So happy to discover your wonderful blog now 🙂 You’re a great writer and I am enjoying your posts, they are insightful and I always take something away from them. Resistance and I are intimately acquainted and you are so right, not feeding it (literally) will open up so much more than just a moment of power. I am reminded of one of my favorite quotes by Karen Maezen-Miller: “What you pay attention to thrives, what you don’t pay attention to withers and dies.” Goes both ways on this weight loss journey. xo

    • Kathleen

      Thanks Kerstin, there is a lot of wisdom in those words. I’m enjoying getting to know you a little bit in the group. I am a regular reader of your blog. Thanks for the kind words.

  3. Nancy Bowlin

    Kathy congrats on your scholarship & exciting new career. It never ceases to amaze me how our darkest moments are turned around into something beyond our wildest imagination by God. I’m so happy for you. You are a already a gifted life coach to so many people through your FB and blog I can’t wait to see the amazing things you will accomplish with your education. Congrats!!

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