Staying Strong even when I feel weak

As most of you know by now, I am currently taking classes to become a Weight Loss Coach. While I am in the process of getting fit, I am preparing myself for a lifetime commitment to help those who struggle like I am.

It’s very common to turn a major life experience into a livelihood. I think if you go into it with your eyes open, it can be a good thing. Recovering Alcoholics often become Addiction counselors, Sick children often grow up to be Doctors, People who have deep spiritual experiences become spiritual leaders, and almost all those I know who have mastered weight loss, write blogs, or find a way to help others. It’s a good thing. When I started this journey to health, I scoured the internet looking for people who had overcome obesity. The most inspiring teachers I have today, are those whom I searched out.

There is a lot of talk about the Law of Attraction. I’m a Christian, so that perspective does not exactly fit my personal faith. New Age philosophy includes many spiritual concepts, including Christianity. I am not that, I am only a Christian, my faith revolves around Jesus Christ, which these days is not a popular name to say. But it is the biggest part of who I am. Since I want the right to choose what I believe, I have respect for everyone else’s choice to have their own faith as well. With that all said, I do believe God hears the desires of our hearts, and loves to please His children. I also believe sometimes, we do not always get what we want, because God had a better plan than our mortal minds can realize. But I believe God loves to give satisfaction and happiness to His children, His love for us is greater than we can possibly wrap our heads around. His joy comes from us receiving his love and blessings. Sometimes I hesitate sharing all of what  I am experiencing because my personal faith is very criticized these days.

God Is Most Glorified in Us When We Are Most Satisfied in Him.~John Piper

As you all know, I have had some very dark days. I have stayed strong, even though I feel weak. I am working through it, and feeling better. I lost one pound this week. I found it too awkward to make a big stink about it. So I didn’t really post anything. I’m grateful for the pound, but I would be lying if I did not admit it was a bit disappointing. I am too focused on getting under that big number, so I have been visioning myself past all of that. I am not a victim to the scale, or water retention. I can do better. I let my weighing and measuring slide, and start guessing, and don’t always count that pat of butter on my green beans. These are the little things that really add up.

The rebellious stubborn side of me, still resists all this rigidness to exacting the proper amounts of food down to the gram. I keep thinking how “normal” people don’t even give it a thought. And of course when I rationalize it in my head, (i.e. lie to myself) I tell myself that I am not eating even close to the way I was eating a little over a year ago. The reason I detest lying and seeing denial in others is because it is the character defect I hate the most in myself. It seems so much easier to believe the lies I tell myself.

I promise you I will keep blogging even when I am struggling. I have noticed a pattern with bloggers, many of them fade or quit writing when they are not having a lot of success. These are the days I need to be here the most. Blessings to all of you!

 

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Thanks so much for taking the time to read my blog. I am a Baby Boomer from Nebraska blogging my way to good health. I am single, with no children, I have a little white maltese dog named Lily. Follow my journey to lose 1 pound 300 times.

4 thoughts on “Staying Strong even when I feel weak

  1. Raqual

    I am grateful you keep writing even in the bad times. Everyone can share the good times, being able to share the bad times too takes courage and honesty.
    I am a believer in celebrating every pound cause no matter how many we have to lose one less is better than the same or one more!
    Something I am just getting my head around recently is weight loss is not perfect, its continued consistency and I think your losses show that even if there is no “perfect”.

    • Kathleen

      Thanks Raqual! You are always in my corner, I’m so grateful for you! I’ll be find, I’m not giving up or slowing down, but these bumps in the road need to be written about as much as the good times. Take care, my friend!

  2. Jean

    Kathy, Your blog is so helpful to me. I read it over and over and something new catches my with every reread. Your struggles are what I identify the most. The way you keep it real, I know I could never be that honest. Thank you for all of it. Jean

    • Kathleen

      Thanks Jean, I guess real is all I know how to be. Sometimes I think I might be to real. I can sometimes make others uncomfortable. I’m glad I can encourage you, don’t give up the fight. Blessings to you, my friend❤️

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