Tenacity

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Tenacity; The quality or act to be able to grip something firmly. The quality or act of being very determined.

After a long month without a loss, I could not believe it! I am finally under the 400s. I am trying to wrap my head around all of this. I have been fighting the fight so long it seems surreal. I remember weighing 537 pounds and feeling hopeless and very scared. I wondered what would happen to me? How was my life going to end. I couldn’t possibly lose over 300 pounds, especially being in my 50’s.  I was widowed, I had no family, I was totally broke, I could barely walk to the bathroom and felt God had abandoned me. Mostly I felt so much shame because of the mess I have made of my life. My friends were dropping off like flys, I was pathetic in their eyes. I don’t blame them, I was pathetic in my eyes as well. I had become very bitter. I will forever be grateful for this handful of gracious friends who loved me unconditionally. They saw my mess and yet, found something valuable in me I couldn’t see in myself. They loved me when I just couldn’t.

We are so capable of achieving so much more than we think we ever could. Sometimes It takes a crisis to push us out of the darkness.  God has a way of taking the rubble from our lives and converting it into a treasure. But we have to be painfully honest, and willing. Shame keeps us from being honest. Just think how amazing we all could be if we could be truly honest and not hide the ugly things in our lives? I had to hit bottom and bounce around down there before I let go of my pride and shame and looked at the reality of my situation. I tried excuses and blaming everyone and everything around me, but that gets us nowhere. It only delays us and uses up precious time.

I was holding on to things that  really didn’t matter. I was stalling myself from who I could truly be; the authentic person my creator designed me to be. Pride, possessions, status, wealth, are all things that we hoard, all while the real lasting treasures are right there within our reach.

When I look back at the progress in only a year, it takes my breath away. I am so focused on the next step, I sometimes fail to realize the ground I have gained. I will be working on a dream board with picture of some of the dreams I have about how my life will be. I’ll be posting it next week. Today I will celebrate the victory, and be grateful for the grace God gives me each every day.

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Thanks so much for taking the time to read my blog. I am a Baby Boomer from Nebraska blogging my way to good health. I am single, with no children, I have a little white maltese dog named Lily. Follow my journey to lose 1 pound 300 times.

10 thoughts on “Tenacity

  1. Debbie Grulke

    Kathy, I am so proud of you and rejoice in you getting to the 1
    300’s. I am on the other end of that and trying desperately trying to get into the 200’s. I know the feeling of desperation and hopelessness that comes and tries to thwart God’s plans. Jesus is our Victory!!! I am no longer on Facebook anymore because it became a time thief in my life. I am so thankful for your blog b/c I can still follow you on your journey. You are an inspiration to many! Be blessed dear sister, slow and steady wins the race!!!

    • Kathleen

      Thank you so much Debbie! I agree 100%! I will miss you on Facebook, but I totally understand. I am glad I have this blog so we can stay in touch. Be blessed my Friend!

  2. jeanette

    So proud of you and so happy for you. Thank you for using your life to bless so many of us on a similar road as yourself. God bless you in all ways.

    • Kathleen

      Thank you for the kind words. I am blessed to have you. The readers of this blog are my lifeline. You make me feel less alone, you guys always lift me up, and celebrate with me. People need People, we all need each other. To quote a well over used saying “If I can do it, so can you!”

  3. Hey Kathy. I wanted to let you know that I am super proud of you! I admire your positivity and your ‘never give up’ attitude. People like you push people like me toward our destiny and to working harder. I’m truly looking forward to seeing your vision board and seeing you meet every goal you have set before you. Thank you so much and may God Bless and Keep You on your journey to the new you.
    HUGS <3<3<3

    • Kathleen

      It’s so fun to make new friends! Thanks for the great coaching! It will be fun to see each other grow in our lives and our Heavenly Father’s love.

  4. Dee

    YES!!!!!! Oh such a sweet sweet victory Kathy, well done you! That’s started my day off with a very wide smile, I’m so chuffed for you. A fist-bump over in England with your name on it 🙂

    • Kathleen

      Thanks you so much my Friend. I can’t thank you enough for the great support you have given me over the last year. Have a great day!

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