Reach for the Sky!

 

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I was down another pound this morning. 143 pounds lost now, since April of 2015. It hardly seems possible. I am so grateful for the grace of God!

One of the biggest obstacles I am currently experiencing is walking through the threshold of my new life. Now I’m not wanting to make a big deal out of this, but I have to address it. I have basically been in my home primarily in my bed the last several years. It’s a bit of a blur, because there was no exact moment this all started in my life. It started by not going into stores when I was married and just staying in the car. Then slid into sitting in a chair in front of the stove to cook my meals, then spending the whole day in bed, then the whole weekend…..

There is some basic living that I have not experienced for a long time. I am gradually getting back to living, but I have to admit, I am a little fearful sometimes. I’m not sure I can explain it correctly, and there is so much shame in exposing this to the world. But the sooner I shed light on it, and quit letting shame keep me captive, the sooner I can get back to living.

The normal mundane things you do every day are challenges for me and create fears you may never even think of. I needed to write about this a bit so I can work through it. It is so safe and secure staying inside my home. I do not have to worry about how far I have to walk, or if I can fit in the chairs, or worry how the world seems me. But am feeling so much better, and because of that, the loneliness has gotten almost unbearable. It feels like the world is going on around me and I am frozen in time, except I am getting older.

So it’s time to walk through the threshold of life. No matter how fearful I am. And even tho I feel a little pain, its no where near the pain 143 pounds ago made me feel. So this week I am going to visit my friends at the local Community Collage and check out finishing up my associates degree. I only have one hour to meet the requirements to graduate. Also, in a couple of weeks I will be a certified Life Coach. Things are about to really change in my life.

My prayer is that someday, someone who was in  situation like mine, will see hope. We are all capable of doing so much more than we think we can. We just get in our own ways sometimes.

Take care everyone, and reach for the sky!

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Thanks so much for taking the time to read my blog. I am a Baby Boomer from Nebraska blogging my way to good health. I am single, with no children, I have a little white maltese dog named Lily. Follow my journey to lose 1 pound 300 times.

12 thoughts on “Reach for the Sky!

  1. I’ve been memorizing and meditating on a verse for the last couple of weeks. I think you will like it. From Joshua 1:9
    “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.”

    For me, I realized the first half of that would have been crushing and totally demoralizing, and I had no hope of doing it, UNLESS connected with the last part: for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go. I find that soooo encouraging. I hope you do, too.

    Can’t wait to read about all the adventures of your new life across that threshold! 🙂

  2. Rhonda W

    You are doing great and congrats on taking that step to get back into the swing of life. Love that you are going to check into finishing your degree. Outstanding! Keep on keeping on… you got this girl!

  3. Joyce

    Sounds like you are in a good place, Kathy; I know it took lots of hard work to get there. Congratulations on all you have accomplished… 🙂

    • Kathleen

      Thanks so much! I have a long way to go, but my life is getting better every day! Thanks for reading and be blessed!

  4. Barbara

    Dear Kathy,

    I have been reading your blog for a bit, and you are such a beautiful person inside and out. You show that you are human, and your lovely spirit shows, and it shines brightly! I am so proud of you and all of your accomplishments. I love the verse that was shared, and also the fact that you are going back to finish up your degree. All of us are cheering you on!

    • Kathleen

      Thanks Barbara! I think we are capable of doing so much more than we think we can, and at any age! I plan on living the best part of my live in my 3rd act! Thanks for the support, it means a lot to me! Blessings!

  5. Jean

    Kathy, I love how honest and vulnerable you let yourself be. Once you get out and get comfortable with it you will be a force to be reckoned with. You are the best!

    • Kathleen

      Thanks Jean, I would sure like to see you again, soon. Maybe we could meet for coffee sometime soon at Starbucks! Take care my friend!

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